Taking advice

Thursday, August 24, 2006

A few weeks ago, an acquaintance was questioning my madness of something very silly that I did. My justification was, admittedly, just as silly as the underlying action. However, he said something that made me change my point of view in regards to something else. He told me to quit trying to manage other people's opinion of myself, that either people are going to like me or not. In addition, he encouraged me to not be so hesitant on things and that if I want something that I should just ask.

So, I swallowed. I took a deep breath. And then contacted a man I met recently. This guy is kinda great. He is in St. Louis working on his PhD in Philosophy, which can only mean this guy knows how to think. Things have been going very smoothly in that area. It's a nice, decent relationship. We have many similar interests and he is a super smart guy.

But, the original guy who gave me the advice has also been on my mind. If I had to be with one type of person, he is that type of person. However, it is because I do think he is so perfect that I could never approach him on that level. I am not even sure I could make the move from acquaintance to friend, let alone a FWB or more-than-friends situation. In addition, he is someone who could probably hurt another's feelings easily. His words can cut like a knife. For example, I recently inquired on his opinion on something I had e-mailed to him. His pithy reply regarding limited bandwith sent me reeling. I hate, hate, hate to give anyone that kind of power over my feelings. And I was mad at myself for even being the slightest bit upset over it! And, thus, I will stick with the status quo. It's so much easier to do that, than to take that leap that you really want to take. In the meantime, it's something I think about in the wee small hours of the morning.
posted by suzyjax on 8/24/2006 06:03:00 PM > 0 comments

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